LeArNiNg To LiVe WiThOuT LoVe

Fairy tales and starlit skies
Once danced in my heart and in my eyes
But all my love has turned to cries
I'm learning to live without love I realize

No holding hands. No times spent with one
Who understands
Heart breaks again, I'm not the one
Lately love is on the run
Everything is broken or undone

I don't want someone to sympathize
I don't want to hear more lies
I just want someone who loves me for me
Isn't the way things were supposed to be
I thought somehow she would find me

Moonbeams shine across the sky
Here alone in my room amidst my sighs
I pray to God and ask him why
I'm learning to live without love I realize

What happened to my simple dreams
Life has broken at the seams
I can't bear any more goodbyes
I'm learning to live without love I realize

I look up one more time upon the skies
I'm learning to live without love I realize

Do YoU HaVe PeAcE ,EvEnThOuGh It FeEls LiKe ChAoS?

How many times we hear without truly listening? I was wondering abouth this (in "") always "Whatever you’re doing inside of me it feels like chaos somehow there’s peace”. There are some moments in life that we really do not understand all the chaos we are living in, or how our life is in such a chaos. Everything is like coming one after another without giving you the chance to breathe properly. A misunderstanding with a friend, family discussions, falling from a step while doing your job, heavy migraines. Sometimes nothing seems to make any sense. In this walk of faith ,I learned that I do not have to understand everything that happens to me. I have to just believe and trust in the one that promised in midst of these life storms.

Eventhough I cannot explain it, it feels like chaos but somehow there is peace, and this peace comes only from myself flows through yourself.

Do you have peace, eventhough it feels like chaos?


It’s time for healing time to move on
It’s time to fix what’s been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It’s time to find my way to where I belong
There’s a wave that’s crashing over me
All I can do is surrender


Whatever you’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there’s peace
It’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see
but I’m giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender…

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I’ve wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You’re up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

LiFe

Well it is our birth right to be discontented
Don't tell us that the world is lemon scented
You say you've had it much harder
Tell me exactly how

No it doesn't have to be so complicated
Not every little thing has become outdated
But we don't have to leave our chair
To go anywhere

Life will be the death of me
Sitting in between four walls
Life will be the death of me
There's no reason to leave at all

We just don't need this weighty pressure
I'm sure you must think it's for the better
But listen Folks whatever it is
I'm sure it's no big deal

So let's try to look from a wider angle
And please let's not fly off the handle
I know I can ensure you that
We haven't partied hard enough

Life will be the death of me
Sitting in between four walls
Life will be the death of me
There's no reason to leave at all

It LeAdS To DeAtH

I feel the pain in my wrist
Sorry for the ones I will miss
Why couldn't you just leave me be
But you broke my heart and left me

Have you no compassion
Leaving me in that ugly fashion
I'm sorry I didn't see it before
But I can't take the pain anymore

How could I see past the lies
I coudn't see it in your eyes
I guess I was blind
Lose in a good time

But now it's too late
I've decided my fate
I miss you
If you wanted to know

But nothing can change what I've done
I've seen my last setting sun
The memories are fading from my mind
The pain is harsh and so unkind

The time I wasted
Is nothing to the tears I've tasted
I take my last breath
As it leads to death

CoMpArIsIoN...

The more I let go of comparing myself to others, the better I feel.

By letting go of the tendency to compare myself unrealistically to others, I equip myself for greater happiness and productivity.

Everyone's journey is different. The point a person is at in their pursuit of their goals means nothing if I don't consider where they started and all the factors that have played into their progress. Even if I do consider all of this, I only know my version of their story, which may or may not be true in reality.

Some people will appear to be ahead of me, and some behind. Everyone progresses at their own rate, in their own time, and are affected by many different factors.

I let go of the desire to place myself on a scale with others and, instead, look at how far I have come as the only accurate measure of my progress.

Not only will I be at a different point in the journey from anyone else, I may even be on a completely different road! I am equipped for the unique journey the universe has intended for me.

I let go of the need to pine after someone else's talents or successes and focus instead on recognizing and developing my own. I free myself from the expectation to be something I was not equipped to be.

I wouldn't put a cat in a pasture and expect her to herd sheep! It doesn't suit her, and it would be a complete waste of my time to try to train her to do something so foreign to her nature.

In the same way, I strive to discover my own talents and develop those skills, recognizing that no one excels at everything. I excel the most when I accept who I am and strive to develop my full potential.

Smoke Boy

You tend to hide your emotions. You are at a very low point in life. You almost seem to not want to go on anymore, to fade away into smoke, not exist. You feel alone in life. You feel as if nobody could ever understand you. But there is only one thing that you cling to in life: You want to belong, but you dont want to change. You want to be around people you want to have a reason to go on. You are sometimes envious of other people's seemingly perfect lives. If you want to have a seemingly perfect life, then you should start hanging around warm sunlike people, or friendly earthlike people, or tell your problems to an quiet listener moon person. And you always have a speck of hope inside of you. Even if you feel all hope is lost, hope is hard to fully kill. so nurture and try to see life through different eyes, and maybe it'll be a brighter world.

My Happiness, Success and Well-being only comes from one person...and that is me.

I now realize that my happiness, success and well-being only comes from one person...and that is me.

By not seeking approval outside myself, I now realize that I already have it. I am the source of my own approval. I am that which I seek.

I, alone, determine my worth and I allow others to determine their own worth.

I am willing to release the need to gain approval from others, even those in positions of authority. I choose not to manipulate their perception of me and allow myself to be who I truly am in their presence.

Anxiously focusing on others' approval or disapproval allows me only to be absent from myself. I choose to be present and honor my thoughts and feelings for the highest good of all involved.

I now define my own success. No one can give it to me, no one can take it from me.

I choose to look beyond ego in others and to become aware of the spirit in us that is constantly connected.

Today, I choose to listen to understand, instead of pretending to be interested in order to impress. I choose to be present for myself and for others.

UnTuNe

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head saying,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
*I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on

Lasting Time

Somebody hit my bike

As if I needed that right now.

And I'm pretty sure he did it on purpose. I could be wrong, of course, but talking to him afterward, I got the distinct impression that he thought that a hard-working pickup driving salt-of-the-earth kinda man should not have to share the road with a young guy in a [_____], and a little bump was just what I needed.

His bike was barely scratched. Judging by the 1600 bill the last time I got a few repairs done, the dents in mine are going to cost me a fortune. Maybe his (or my) insurance will pay for it, but it has already been a colossal hassle. I'm annoyed.

In other, much better, news,Friends planned for a GOa tour.thanks for them, but I can't afford it right now, but I really want to go. I have a couple trips within Madurai that I've been wanting to do (Kodaikanal at the top ) but I feel like those can be done more spur-of-the-moment when a great fare pops up, because the friends I want to see will always be there no matter when I go. I would only do broad if a friend asked me. I haven't taken a day off work , so I should probably do it.

Also, this friend would be AMAZING to travel with. He is one of those peoples who soaks up experiences and really appreciates life. He'd savor the food. He'd want to run up a hill and spread out his arms and sing. they'd want to explore the little alleys and visit the local shops where the owner only speaks tamil. He's never been outta chennai , so it would be wonderful to see KK through his fresh eyes.