Is That You Made Me Cry?....So,here I Go

See the sadness in my eyes? I'll make you cry

Look upon the daggers that have broken my frail soul

To shine with in the darkness and allow my pain to take its toll.

I begged you for your mercy but all you gave me were bloody hands.

I pushed away the darkness in hopes my light would start to expand

The blood is suffocating me and I'm drowning in its lies

How could you let me fall like this into the blood red tied

I'm sorry if you think i hurt you, I'll carry that each day

But bring your hands back to me and help me feel today

I'm reaching out but your not pulling in

dose this mean your the one to win

Look into my death filled eyes and tell me what you see

Did you really think you and i were meant to be

I'll dump you when you reach back for me once again

You never really cared for me i see it was only pretend

so back away and leave me to die

as the blood stained tears fall from my eyes

I'll call to you in spirit and I'll haunt you every night

You'll kill your self in pity and I'll laugh at how I'm right

So watch me fall away again and I'll kiss you good-bye

If only you hadn't let me die

I'd still come back to you

But now its to0 late for you and I'll see what you'll do

I'll laugh in your pathetic pain and let you feel my pain

You think that you knew me well, or did you go insane

For now i'll leave you broken in two and crash apart your heart

If you had just been there for me this wouldn't be the start

of a painful gasp of air that you take into your lungs

My eyes light up with bliss and I'll taste you with my tongue

Good-bye to you. what a said and pitiful end

you should have just told me the truth instead of playing pretend

The World I Want To live In

I'm not sure if "deserving" happiness is the best way to think about it. I'd ask yourself, what is achieved by forgoing happiness in your life? Does it make the situation of people in your area better if you are not happy? If you are happy, does it make the situation of suffering people in your areaworse?

In a way, it's a very self-centered idea that martyring ourselves (even emotionally) will make everyone else's life better. People who worry about surviving the trip to the market are totally and completely unaffected by whether you allow yourself to be happy. To think that feeling miserable is a moral response to the suffering of others is to buy into a weird mix of low self-esteem and high self-importance: your misery does nothing to alleviate other's suffering.

If the real importance of the question is not about what you "deserve" to feel, but rather whether it's morally or ethically acceptable to take actions that will make yourself happy at the expense of potentially taking actions that will make you less happy but could increase the happiness of others--well, that's a tougher question. First, I'd want to know whether making yourself happy really comes at the expense of doing something to make someone else happy. (If you forgo a nice vacation because other people in the world are suffering, it isn't really that your vacation comes at the expense of others in the world who are suffering. See above paragraph: people everywhere are wrapped up in their own lives, and the personal experiences of one person very very rarely have any sort of effect on others perceptions of their own situation.) Second, if *you* have no right to happiness when others suffer, then what right do people have to happiness when you aren't happy? That line of thinking, taken to its logical conclusion, would imply that the best world is where no one deserves happiness. That's not a world I want to live in, and I doubt it's the sort of world that you really want either.