If I had

I guess I'm a little superstitious, since I refused to let these thoughts mature in my head (let alone write them down) until they returned home and none of this could come to pass. But I think it's a useful mental exercise, so I'm going to do it now with my affluenza to write some stuff

In one of the situations my friend came to me and asked to think if at any case my father did give me this what will be my response and what would i fill up with

"If something happens to me, you can find a list of my major assets at [_____], and the valuation of [_____] is [_____], and you can trust [_____] to be honest in helping you [_____]." Basically, the "here's how you get your hands on your inheritance" he gives before he went.


So I started thinking: (putting aside the obvious trauma and devastation of losing him , which I wouldn't elect to endure for anything) what would I do if something happened?

Note, though, that this is different from the related question of "what would I do if I won the lottery?" Suddenly coming into a lot of money would give me a lot of freedom to choose a new life, certainly. But the more important component here is "what would I do if I had enough money to not work AND I no longer had my parents' expectations for my life as a factor in my decision-making process?"

I don't really know the answer, but it's something I need to think about. My first, flippant, answer would be "quit my studies." But if I think about it more, I'm not so sure. I wouldn't stop studying altogether, even if I could. It'd be boring to "stop" at my age. So the question is what I'd do.


It's true that a big part of the reason I'm here is my parents' expectations. But now that I'm here, I have to admit it's a pretty good place to be. Of the handful of things I can picture myself doing in 10 years, this isn't a terrible stepping stone to get there. There are other more "funny"things I'd rather do on any given day. But there's time for that later, once I have some experience under my belt. it'd be stupid to just quit and do something fun until I'm sure I don't want to do such kinda. So at least I can say I wouldn't quit my studies immediately. I certainly wouldn't just jump in KUVUM and its as annoying as the rat race is sometimes, it turns out it is actually where I want/need to be right now, for myself.

So, that gives me some comfort. If I can honestly say I'd probably choose to be a free lancer(at least in the short term) even if I had the freedom to do anything else,then I guess life ain't so bad!! and thanks to my friend for costing some calories in my mind(i dint have gravity to write till then)