The Slippig Rays of Hope

I can't fall back on the things I used to count on
I've found myself to be too unlike the person I was
The world hasn't got me downI just seem to be down despite
All the potential I saw in myself when I was young
Has been replaced by the urge to take
When I've given all I have
The end is on the horizon
But I couldn't move now if I tried
I ruin all I touch
A most instrumental Midas curse
I will never know myself until I learn to stand again
I really want to love
It just seems I don't know how
The slipping rays of hope hardly stay my broken soul
In the vastness of existence, I seem to have lost control