How Can I Fulfill?

I wish I knew better how to let things go and just have faith in life's current, and float. I want to be able to do that, and I've tried really, really hard, many, many times. But the thing is, the minute I start feeling all zen about my present and future, I panic.

How can I leisurely float when getting the things I want and deserve in my life take planning and work? I do believe in the incredible power of thought and attraction, but I also know it takes more than concentrated contemplation to manifest something. It takes effort, organization, fulfillment of goals and thinking things through. And maybe I'm completely wrong, but when I'm laying back, simply flowing and letting things happen as they may, I'm not so much playing an active role in creating the life I want for myself. Am I?

Everyone has goals,Nothing to admire at this, but , I'm frightened by it. Does Everyone are extremely driven and hardworking. If You want to do something, You will. "No" is not an option for You. You'r a doer.You may have ability to make things happen. in fact, at Your young age, Youve may have already accomplished many of Your dreams. Of course You may have a lot more hopes to - make Your WILL - fulfill, and while I am in awe of others determination and ability to not just set a goal, but follow it through to fruition, I am worried about my lack of clarity in determining, and thus making happen, my own goals.

Here's One thing: there are many things I want to accomplish in my lifetime. But they're all blurry and indiscriminate. Where as GENIUS'S goals are focused and specific, mine are ambiguous, more metaphorical. They are a fuzzy smudge to theis dark, fine-pointed line. And, as I'm finding, when your goals aren't specific or clear, neither is figuring out how to achieve them. What do I want to do? I want to help people. I want to write. I want to creatively express myself. I want to be a great Dad(dont lol) in future. I want to make a difference. I want to make people's days brighter. These are MUSTS in my life, but beyond being the person who acts on all the above, every single day, I'm not sure where I belong, what my career options are and what paths I should get on.

Because of this, I worry that I won't do all the things I want in my life, and instead, will wind up merely playing a supporting role in the lives of my loved ones. While I want to support my family in becoming the people they want to be, and while I want to be a loving partner and as incredible dad to my future children as my dad is to me, I don't want my own dreams for myself, my life, to fall by the wayside.


My Loved ones's will support me in achieving my dreams, too. I just have to get clear - have a more palpable idea of what they are. I do know, though, that I am not okay with merely being an accessory to someone else's life.