Wondering If Friendships Were Real!!!!!

There are friendships that I keep
Though they only make me weep
There are friends I hope are true
And pray for as I lay down to sleep

But I'm thinking of friends who came and went
Who at first felt so true and Heavensent
So precious at the time that kindness was lent
And then disappeared as if every last cent was spent

Without the reassurance of lasting care
Without contact or taking time anymore to share
I sadly question everything and I hear my heart declare
"I wonder if they were truly ever really there?"

Thinking now just what I feel
questioning what really is or isn't real
I have found so few in life on whom I can depend
I wonder if I've really ever had a best friend

I guess I'm jaded through and through
I smile but my heart cries huh!
And there is not a thing I can do
But think of what we shared..and miss you too

To My Best Friend!!!!!!!!!!

Theres something that you need to know ,
All this time, Ive been learning how to let you go
I ve waited , pleaded forgivin and cried
just enough to know that I tried
tried for a time and fought for a season
begging and pleading for you to give me a reason
to try this again with tears in my eyes.
Ive ran out reasons Ive ran out of why's
and it cant be without you, but ready to try
You ask for the answers , im not ready to give you,
how can we move forward when I cant forgive you.

I was waiting there, to find direction
i was waiting there to see your intentions


But, were just two different people, and somehow I know
that were two different people that need to let go.

(I will never forget you , you really are my best freind.)