Wondering If Friendships Were Real!!!!!

There are friendships that I keep
Though they only make me weep
There are friends I hope are true
And pray for as I lay down to sleep

But I'm thinking of friends who came and went
Who at first felt so true and Heavensent
So precious at the time that kindness was lent
And then disappeared as if every last cent was spent

Without the reassurance of lasting care
Without contact or taking time anymore to share
I sadly question everything and I hear my heart declare
"I wonder if they were truly ever really there?"

Thinking now just what I feel
questioning what really is or isn't real
I have found so few in life on whom I can depend
I wonder if I've really ever had a best friend

I guess I'm jaded through and through
I smile but my heart cries huh!
And there is not a thing I can do
But think of what we shared..and miss you too